Coming Home to Sacred Mysteries

Encounter with Mary in the Three Part Colloquy [62]
The Spiritual Exercises of Saint Ignatius of Loyola

I get all wrapped up
in the veils
of my Mother's presence.
I hear the swooshing
of her garments
As she passes me by.
I feel the hems
of her garments
brushing over my feet.
She also is near
and comes to help me,
puts her hand
on my breastbone,
and speaks gently to my heart.
I am her child
And she is my mother.
Thanks be to God
for this indescribable gift.
Amen.

Preface

The Wall of Mary
"I went out by night...and I inspected the walls of Jerusalem that had been broken down..." Nehemiah 2:13a

May 23, 2016

What is the Wall of Mary like in your life? The Wall of Mary.
These words kept coming to me this past week.
I felt led to read Nehemiah's story of his scrutiny of the walls of Jerusalem, by examination of them at night. The Book of Nehemiah is about the rebuilding of the walls of Jerusalem, but it is also a story about the walls that need to be in place around our hearts.

I am in the midst of a family crisis.
I prayed the Rosary all night. I prayed all the Mysteries of the Rosary:
Joyful
Sorrowful
Glorious
Luminous
The true Rosary, before culture got so busy.

You have rebuilt your Wall of Mary.
You have rebuilt the Wall of Mary in your life.
I heard these words. Then:

Just as a mother holds
as treasures in her heart,
the memories of her child's life,
so too my Mother holds in her life,
the Mysteries of my life.

When you hold the treasure
of the Mysteries of my life
in your life,
you have rebuilt The Wall of Mary
in your life.

The Wall of Mary consists of the Mysteries
of my life and hers.
These are the Mysteries of my life.
When you contemplate my life,
you see your life in mine.

This is the Wall of Mary that must be built into the life of every believer.

2011

March 28, 2011
Those who criticize are the ones who are suffering. Look at what was done to me.
John 4:6b
And the Lord pointed, and I saw the three crosses on Calvary.
If I am persecuted, I suffer, this is true; but if I am innocent, as Jesus, the suffering is different from the suffering of those who condemn and criticize.

April 29, 2011
You can only mourn what you have loved.
Tears and pain at the miscarriage, the loss of a granddaughter, Angelica Penelope, whom I will not see in this life.

April 30, 2011
All I desire is that you come into My Presence.

May 4, 2011
You are attentive and considerate with each person; you enable them to be all they can be.
Examen prayer, Saint Ignatius of Loyola

June 21, 2011
The closer you come to Me, the more the darkness will dissipate. For I am the Light of the World.

June 28, 2011
What matters is how you carry your cross.
What keeps coming to me is the hymn, the words: Lift High the Cross.

July 22, 2011
"Every scribe who has been trained for the kingdom of heaven is like the master of a household who brings out of his treasure what is new and what is old." Matthew 13:52

This is what I am saying to you. In this day, many would put aside the things of the past. But I say to you, it is the things of the past that are needed in this day. This then is what the Scripture means:
Take from me the things I have said, show them to the world, which is in so much need of the Truth. All has been cast aside that has been deemed old fashioned, antiquated, of no value. And the new is embraced, the modern, the technical. Yet where is it all from? Is there indeed anything new under the sun? Or has all been rewritten, restructured, remade, to look new? There is nothing new under the sun. Those who think they create, should look again closely at what has transpired under their hand, for there is indeed nothing new under the sun. If you cast a net into the sea, and draw forth a net full of things, that you did not see before the net rose to the surface, does that make you the creator? If you cast into a bowl the things you do know, and draw from the oven a bread or a cake, does that make you the creator?

Look and see: there is indeed nothing new under the sun. Therefore, take what you have learned in the past, good things learned at the knee of another, and bring them to me, see if I will not make new disciples for the Kingdom. For I am unchanging in all my ways; and my message remains the same.

August 7, 2011
There is nothing more desirable in this world, than to offer My Body to eat, to another. There is nothing more desirable, nothing in this world more desirable, than to offer My Body to eat, to another. There is nothing more desirable.
The Lord's Word to me concerning the ministry of Extraordinary Ministers of Communion.

August 19, 2011
The justice of all Grace is this:
The less a man becomes,
The more he becomes like God.
I had been reading My Way of Life, Confraternity of the Precious Blood, God and His Creature, pages 8-10

August 19, 2011 later morning
Then the Lord put my hand in Mary's and said to me:
Go to my mother. Listen to her. She knows me better than anyone. She knows the desires of my heart.
Trust me, My child.
Matthew 16:13-20 Peter's profession of faith

August 21, 2011
You know who I am. Therefore now go to my Mother; she has my ear. There is nothing between us. Tell her the desires of your heart, and she will make them known to me; I will hear them, and I will answer your prayers.

August 25, 2011
Examen prayer, letter to a friend concerning calumnies against the Blessed Mother:
"As I sit here, my dear friend, I realize that I have done you an injustice. One day this week, I had a small disagreement with my son. Our relationship is always good, so I found it very painful to be at odds with him. Of course it did not last long, as he and I both called each other at different times to talk about it. After a day we were back in the loving relationship that we treasure so much. Thanks be to God.

Through this experience the Lord brought to mind how I had set aside my relationship with His own Mother, first through the Anglican Church, and then through a conversation we had had concerning Mary as Queen of Heaven. As a result, I threw out a rosary Jack (my husband) had given me and also a small commemorative statue of Mary and Jesus, which I had received as a young girl at Saint Aloysius School. This is not to say that I blame you, or for that matter the Anglican Church. In my weak faith I listened to slander and calumnies against the Mother of God, for that is what she is, and I did not set things right. I did not stand firm. You see, dear friend, just as I know my own sons, having loved them from the beginning when they were in my womb, under my breast, and known them, as they grew to know me, so too Our Heavenly Mother knew and loved Jesus, as he grew in her womb, under her own breast. And so too she knew him, as she nursed him and watched him grow, and he knew her as he grew. This intimacy has not changed with Mary and Jesus, as it will not change for us as we enter heaven in our time.

And as we leave room for Jesus to grow in us, so much closer to Mary do we grow and she to us, for the Son that is hers is in us, and she watches us grow as she watched her Son grow. She is our Mother in a very real way, in the flesh, as Jesus took flesh from her, and in the Spirit, as that same Spirit in Jesus, lives also in us.

All this to say that I did you a great disservice my sister in Christ, by not standing firm and confirming that she who is the Mother of the Most High is also our Mother, as John tells us in Revelation 12:1-17, her children who obey God's commandments and bear witness for Jesus.

I know that there is a great distance between us both physically across the water, and also in some of the ways that we perceive the things of God. But it is my hope and prayer, that our common love for Jesus Christ our Lord and Saviour, supersedes the differences in our various opinions and beliefs. For we shall both enter into the Kingdom to stand before Him Who is Faithful And True. Revelation 19:11-16

Thanks be to God through His Son Jesus Christ. With much love,
Your sister in Christ Jesus,
Penny

September 6, 2011
Nothing gives Me more joy than to hear the voice of my child in my ear.

October 12, 2011
Evil collaborates for evil, and good collaborates for good.
Matthew 22:15-21, On Tribute to Caesar

October 24, 2011
It's not hard, just do as I do.
Matthew 23:1-12

October 26, 2011
You know your sin, and this is why you love me so much. If they do not know their sin, how can they love? Pray that their hearts may be softened, that the veil of flesh be removed from their eyes, that they may see and turn and I heal them. This is why I said, "Father, forgive them for they know not what they are doing."
Luke 7:36-50

October 26, 2011
You must not love this passing world or anything that is in this world. The love of the Father cannot be in any man who loves the world because nothing the world has to offer - the sensual body, the lustful eye, pride in possessions - could ever come from the Father but only from the world; and the world, with all it cares for, is coming to an end; but anyone who does the will of God remains forever.
1John 2:15-17
[63] Question: Do I really abhor the sins of my life?
I felt great hope as I read this. And the Lord said to me:
Your temptation shall be in the banal.

Source:
[63] 2 That I may feel an interior knowledge of my sins, and hatred of them.
DRAW ME INTO YOUR FRIENDSHIP, The SPIRITUAL EXERCISES
David L. Fleming, S.J.
The Institute of Jesuit Sources, Saint Louis 1996.

October 31, 2011
Two generations coming against each other: one wants to go forward; the other wants to return to the past.

November 21, 2011
Be aware of my Presence; I am always with you.
Mark 13:33-37

November 26, 2011
If you do not minister to them, how can you speak of those who want to kill them?
Fourth Joyful Mystery, The Presentation
I saw Simeon and Anna as being visited by the Lord, being presented with the Lord, as we do in the Ministry of Communion.
And the thought of Euthanasia came to me, and how the countries all over the world are trying to make it okay in their legal systems.

December 24, 2011
In this life you will have troubles, but do not fear, I am with you throughout it all.
I am with you and will never abandon you. Trust in Me, My child. Trust in Me.
Luke 2:1-14

December 30, 2011
Through your life, you know a little of what My Son felt.
Fourth Sorrowful Mystery, The Carrying of the Cross.

2012

January 4, 2012
As much as is your desire to do good things for your children, much more is My desire to do good things for you.

My Son came into a world of conniving and deceit.
Matthew 2:1-12, Visit of the Magi

January 13, 2012
Fear of intimacy. You have been avoiding me in prayer.
Your experience of intimacy is that it comes with many demands. This is the human way. But it is not this way with Me. My Way is Freedom.

The human way comes with many demands. This is your experience. But it is not this way with Me. I bring freedom.

I am the Way, the Truth, and the Life.
Examen prayer, Saint Ignatius of Loyola

January 25, 2012
If you knew the treasure of God, in sitting in silence with His Word, you would never speak again.
Liturgy of the Hours, Wednesday, page 1838:
"When we listen to your word, our minds are filled with light.
-It is the lowly heart that understands."

January 28, 2012
A rejection of your person is a rejection of Me.
Examen prayer, healing of a feeling of unloveableness.

February 3, 2012
Just as I watched over My Son in his suffering, so too I watch over you in your suffering, and I will lift you up.
Mark 14:33
The Sorrowful Mysteries. I cried at this and prayed my Rosary with uplifted hands. Truly I am not alone in my suffering. Truly God is with us.

February 6, 2012
It is only through My Word and My Body that you can truly rejoice in your union with me. For man alone in the flesh this is not possible.
Grace: Power to rejoice in my union with God
Psalm 145
Again the hymn comes to me, and I stay with it: Gift of Finest Wheat.

Source: PRAYER COMPANIONS' HANDBOOK, John Wickham, s.j.
Ignatian Centre Publications, Montreal, Quebec, Canada
EIGHT THEMES FOR PRAYER
3. God Gives Himself to Me
Grace: Power to rejoice in my union with God.

March 18, 2012
I am struggling with pain in my back, and with the concerns I have for the children.
Examen prayer
The Lord said to me:

Your children will take care of whatever is needed. All will be well. Have I not always provided for them? Look and see. Even as you pray it is being done. Do not be afraid. All will be well, my child.

Even as you pray, it is being done. There is not a word that comes to your lips that I am not aware of, for I know your heart. It is my desire to satisfy your heart my child for I know your needs and the needs of your children. Do not be afraid. I am ever near and will never desert or abandon you. I know what I want to do. I know what is needed. You pray for what you do not see. But I pray for what I do do, and I see all that is needed to bring order to this family. I have put in place a new thing. Can you not see it? Even as it springs up, I make it known to you. I am bringing streams to the wilderness, the wilderness of their lives. Trust in me my child. I know what needs to be done and I will do it.

See the signs I set before you, and trust in me. Let your heart be at rest for I am near. Now go to your day my child. Rest in me.
Amen.

I felt a feeling of wonder and awe in my breast as the Lord spoke these words at the beginning: Look and see. Even as you pray it is being done. These are the words that the Lord had spoken to me one day so long ago, when my two children were in really difficult places; they were young and rebellious. I had been reading a book by Catherine Marshall. I had prayed in agony earlier. Then I read when a boy was healed, the mother lifted his shirt and the disease became like dust and fell off his skin, as she lifted his shirt. But I did not read the words on the page, I "read" with my heart different words: Look and see. Even as you pray it is being done.

There is a Scripture that has been coming to me: He sets the lonely in families. Psalm 68:6a

He has done this for me with my husband.

He has done this for my older son and his wife.

He is doing this for my younger son with his child.

We three were lonely and He has set us in families.

Thank you Lord God! Amen.
Praise you Jesus.

March 19, 2012
John 12:20-33

As I was praying about the baby's name I looked up and I saw the icon of Mary and Jesus. And Mary said to me in my heart, in a soft voice:
Look at my Son; he is of the line of David; this is a good name.

And I saw how even this name, David, is a direction from God. I felt quite peaceful.

My daughter-in-law found a crib, and I agonized over the fact that it was second hand. But the Lord had said to me even before my son assured me. Your children will take care of what is needed. All will be well.

Today in John 12:20-33, I was with the crowd. They were putting palm branches on the ground. The Lord got down from the donkey. And his disciples came to him and as I read in the Scriptures, he was deeply troubled, because of what was before him.

He said to me, This is how life is, it is messy. But you can't fix things. You just need to be there, to be present, to sit with them.

I saw how the Lord had all this before him, and he didn't want the disciples to fix things, but just to be with him. And they weren't all able to do this. Peter denied him, some ran away and hid themselves. John and his Mother stayed, and the other Mary.

It is like this with my children. I can't fix things, I can just be there, be present for them.

God will provide for all that is needed.

2013

April 22, 2013
"Peace I bequeath to you,
my own Peace I give you,
a peace the world cannot give,
this is my gift to you.
Do not let your hearts be troubled or afraid." John 14:27

You cannot love one another without My Peace...pray the Lord's Prayer.

May 6, 2013
a prayer for Mother's Day
As I prayed this morning, I thought of my prayer of last night, wisdom for a prayer for Mother's Day, and this is what came to me to write:

Dear Lord Jesus,
Thank you for the gift of being a mother. In all of my daily activities, help me to be a good example to others. Give me the strength and wisdom to guide my children, that they may grow into the men and women you have in mind for them to be. In moments of discouragement, help me. Send me graces of love and joy. In moments of growth, help me to know that it is by Your hand that I prosper. At all times be at my side with Your Spirit of Life and Truth. In all things, let Your Way be my guide.
Heavenly Mother, pray for me. Amen.

July 8, 2013
The Good Samaritan; Luke 10:25-37

It is a movement of the heart that is needed; this is salvation.

Compassion.

It is not enough to do good; it is an act of the heart that is needed.

Go and do likewise.

This man's heart was filled with compassion.

Go and do likewise.

July 30, 2013
Such Peace as I prayed the Examen Prayer.

When you begin your day with Me,
you are filled with Peace.

When you start your day with Me,
your life is filled with Peace.

When you begin your day with Me,
your day is filled with Peace.

Thank you, Lord.

August 30, 2013
Luke 14:1a, 7-14
Write these words, My child.

In all that you do, and in all that you see, know that I am with you, ever at your side. The way is clear. I will put all at your disposal. Those that come before you, call them. For it is not you who call but I. I bring them before you, and they have heard My voice. Like sheep to the voice of their master, their shepherd, they come. They do not come to you, they come to Me.

Trust me in all that you do. For it is not the work of your hands, but the work of Mine. If I call you to a task, shall I not equip you, prepare you, for what is ahead. Do I want the work of My hand to fail? No I tell you, for I have a plan for this people, a plan to prosper them and not to harm them, a plan to give them hope and a future. All you need to do is to be present, present to Me, and present to those around you.

You are right in your thinking.

The Pharisees watched for their own purpose, for their own means. Their desire was to harm and to bring false justice, false judgment. And they succeeded, for the Cross is for the righteous. It is the Cross each person must bear on this earth. For it is written: Take up your Cross and follow me. I say it again: The Cross is for the righteous. When you have a difficulty, take up your Cross, for you are not alone. He Who has gone before has prepared the Way for you.

You then do this: be present to those around you, not to bring judgment, but to bring Peace, to bring comfort, to bring wisdom for their lives.

This is the way of the world: to judge harshly and without mercy, without compassion.

This is the way of Love: to show mercy, to show the way.

I am the Lord of Love; I am the Lord of Mercy. He who comes to Me shall never die, but have eternal life.

Come to Me, that you may live.
Be near to those around you, and they shall be near to Me, for I am with you always to the end of the age.

Alleluia. Alleluia. Amen.

Thank you Lord Jesus. Thank you.

As I sat in the Lord's Presence with this Scripture, it came to me that Jesus was showing me that there are two ways to be with people.

The first way, the way of the Pharisees, is to be present for your own agenda.

The Pharisees watched Jesus, looking for a way to accuse him, to bring harm to him.

Jesus, on the other hand, was truly present to the people, attentive to what was happening around him, what was happening in their hearts, ready to help them and guide them.

This Scripture shows me the better way to be present to people, to those around us, not for my purpose, my agenda, but for their good, their progress in the faith.

Thank you, Lord Jesus.

In this parable, Jesus shows us two ways to be present to others; and he shows us the better way.

The Lord shows us through this Scripture reading how we can be present to others in two ways.

The first is like the Pharisees, looking with our eyes from our own intent, our own agenda, our own desires, and not for the good of the other.

The second is like Jesus, observing the actions and desires of the hearts of others, to speak the truth in Love, for the benefit and good, the salvation, of the other.

This is the better way.

Even within the parable itself, Jesus speaks of the desires of the heart.

Jesus invites us to choose the better way, the more, the Magis, as Ignatius would say.

Amen.

September 4, 2013
I am doing these things for you that you may serve my people in the ways that I have in mind.
A friend is offering to help me with one of my children.

October 15, 2013
All the things you do, do them in the little ways you can.

I prepared copybooks for two ladies who will be joining our Telephone Prayer Chain, with some prayer helps to give them and green scapulars.

I prayed giving it all into the Lord's hands, asking Him to help me in the weak places of my life and offering him all that I am.

Thank you Lord Jesus.

October 21, 2013
Luke 18:1-8 The Unscrupulous Judge and the Importunate Widow
"pray continually and never lose heart." Verse 1b

How important this is, my child, especially in these days. Do not lose heart, for I know your suffering and pain, for I have taken it into myself. Look around you. Are there any who do not suffer? It is indeed the valley of tears. Yet, do not lose heart. For I am ever near. I will not forsake you or abandon you. For if I do, I abandon myself. I forsake myself. Doesn't the very nature of things tell you that I am within you? Yes, it is so. For it is no longer you who live, but I who live in you.

Trust me in all of these things, my child. I am ever near, and I love you with a love that knows no end, a love that has no limit, no parameters.

Trust me, my child. Trust me. Amen.

November 2, 2013 Saturday evening
Trust me my child. I know what I will do. I know that your heart is heavy. But know this. I have them in the palm of my hand. There is nothing you can do. You must trust me, my child. There are many ways that I am working in their lives, even though they are not aware. Both of these young people need healing, and I am the one to do it. Before a word is on your lips I know it fully my child. Have I not shown you and this is so. Yet you worry and fret. Offer up to me these sorrows. For I know the human heart. I too walked on this earth, and I know the sorrows of man. I will provide for all that is needed. There is nothing for you to do: I will make your righteousness shine like the noonday sun. Do not worry about the child. Was I not well taken care of as a child? Have I not provided for all that is needed? And I will continue to do so. You are right in your thinking. This boy needs a good job. This boy needs a reliable car. This boy needs healing. And this girl as well. Trust in me. The child is in good hands. As difficult as these things may seem, there is one thing they have in common. They both love this child and will care for him. Do not worry so my child. I am near, and I will not abandon them, for if I do, I abandon myself.

Now go to your evening, and be at peace, for I already have them in the palm of my hand and I will prevail in all. There is naught that can come near save the Holy One Himself. Trust me my child. And be at Peace. Amen.

November 25, 2013
Matthew 24: 37-33
(Be on the alert)

The words that stood out for me were: of two women at the millstone grinding, one is taken, one left.
Another crisis for my son.

Life is uncertain, and you do not know what is ahead. Do not worry so, for each day takes care of itself. Have I not always provided a way out from under?
Therefore trust in Me, my child, One is taken, the other left. What can this mean? Trust in me for you do not know thte number of your days. Man is like a breath. Do you not know that I am everlasting? And if I am everlasting, shall I not be there to carry you through? Therefore trust in Me, for I will make your righteousness shine like the noonday sun.

This son of yours will always have difficulty, but I will always be there. I will never abandon him. Why do you worry so about these words? Is this not the way of the world. I have said, In this world you will have trouble. Yet do not be afraid. For I have overcome. Do not look at others and think that they have no trouble. For it is not so. All who walk on this earth live through trials and tribulations. Yet I am constant in their lives. I do not abandon. For if I do I abandon myself. For I am life itself. Do not worry so. All will be settled. All will fall into place. My hand will be there to guide and protect as always. Do not worry so my child. For each day has trouble unto itself. And I am ever near.

I love you with an everlasting love and with an everlasting love will I sustain you and yours.

Some can see the hand of the Lord. Some cannot. But that does not mean that I am not there.

Trust in me my child: I will make your righteousness shine like the noonday sun. Amen.

November 29, 2013
Matthew 24:37-44

I have blessed you with someone to be with you. That you not be alone in your trials. Do not take him for granted. In this world you will have trouble, but do not fear. You are not alone. And I am with you to the end of the age. Trust in me, my child. Trust in me.

As I reflected I thought about the many trials we are living.

I have great Peace, thanks to the prayers that are going up for us. Thanks to the Lord.

Amen.

November 30, 2013
Matthew 24:37-44

Do not be concerned with the things of this world, but of the next. The Son of Man will come in Glory, and all the angels and saints will accompany him.

When you have joy in your heart, you do not say, 'from whence comes this joy?' You smile and you revel and enjoy the time.

But when you feel sorrow, then you look, from whence comes this sorrow, this burden? and you try hard to dispense yourself of this.
So it will be when the Son of Man comes. For the one, it will be with great joy that he welcomes the Son of Man for the joy shall dispell the darkness and there shall only be good.

For the other the time will be hard. There will be sorrow and this one shall say from whence comes this sorrow, but there shall be no freedom from it.

So you in this day, in this hour, in this minute, in this moment, seek first the Kingdom of God, seek first the things above, for your Heavenly Father is pleased to bless you. And even that which you do not seek, shall be given to you, shall be provided.

Trust in me my child, for I shall do this. I shall make your righteousness shine as the noonday sun.

So will it be at the coming of the Son of Man. So now do this: seek first the Kingdom of God and all these things shall be added unto you. Alleluia, Alleluia. The Lord is near. Alleluiah.
Amen.

Examen Prayer
As I looked back on my day, I was filled with a certain amount of anxiety. Then the Lord brought to mind the memories of my granddaughter's dousing herself with my holy water (she was not yet baptised), and the paper I had completed for the course last night. I have been struggling with who to ask to read the English and the French prayers for grandparents (Sunday at Church). It has come to me to ask two persons I know.

This came again, and I feel Peace. Thank you Lord Jesus. Amen.

December 18, 2013 12:35am
These are the things that have come to me during this day of prayer and fasting for family concerns:

I read a verse in the Liturgy of the Hours. This hymn came to me:
Like a good shepherd he feeds his flock, and gathers the lambs in his arms.

As I prayed the Rosary, The Joyful Mysteries...The Second Mystery...
The Visitation.
I saw in my rosary pamphlet the image of Mary and Elizabeth greeting each other. The Lord said to me:
My children too suffered greatly.
And it came to me that both Jesus and John the Baptist suffered and died young.
Mary and Elizabeth both saw their sons suffer and die at a young age.

2014

January 12, 2014
Matthew 3:13-17
"Then Jesus appeared." Matthew 3:13a

I break into people's lives, the Lord said to me. He is breaking into my youngest granddaughter's life, "I want to be baptized," she is crying tears. She is hurt that everyone else is baptized but not her. She is making her choice.

March 10, 2014
Matthew 17:1-9 The Transfiguration
The Lord is near.
How close is heaven and earth?
Only a vision, a dream, a consolation away.

March 20, 2014
Just be with Me, I heard the Lord say.

I strive for perfection in the wrong ways, to please everyone. But I only need to please the Lord.

What Peace I feel now. Like a gentle touch on my heart, a little bird sitting quietly within me, is my heart now. And I feel my mouth curving up to a small inward smile. Peace and tranquility as the storm within me subsides.

How long has it been, this battle?, I asked as I was praying. And the answer came:
Three years, since Sarah's diagnosis.

April 1, 2014
John 11:6-7, 33;38, 41 Lazarus
Sometimes discernment means waiting.

April 21, 2014
I prayed for wisdom, why are You permitting this trial, Lord? My children are suffering so much.

A little light came: to focus on my life with my husband. And Peace with this thought. I am not alone. Jack is in my life, my husband, as a sign that I am not alone.

April 25, 2014
I have asked You to strengthen me for the trials ahead, and You have shown me that it is in my very relationship with my husband that I will be strengthened for the trials of life that are before me.

Help me to make my marriage a priority and to put my husband before me.

April 25, 2014
"In the evening of that same day, the first day of the week, the doors were closed in the room where the disciples were, for fear of the Jews. Jesus came and stood among them." John 20:19ff

In your difficulties, you can isolate yourself. But do not fear, I am here, and I will breathe new life into you, that you may have Peace, and live.

April 28, 2014
"Jesus himself came up and walked by their side, but something prevented them from recognizing him."
Luke 24:15

The sorrows of this life can prevent you from seeing Me. Take the time to come to Me and to lay your burdens at My feet, for I am ever near.
Do not be afraid.

May 20,2014
I heard in the midst of feeling critical about my not being faithful:
a life devoted to Me.
My heart lifted.

May 21, 2014
As I continued to read the Gospel for Sunday, what stood out for me was:
"You know him (Holy Spirit), because he is with you, he is in you." John 14:17b.
and I felt that this was for the kids. The Lord was telling me that he is in them and with them.

And he said to me
Do not fear, my child.
You see your children?
I am with them
and I direct them. Do not fear.
I will never abandon them.
My heart is with them,
as my heart is with you.

Thank you Lord for this Blessed Assurance.

July 28, 2014
Beverley is helping me...I have registered my granddaughters for the Faith First Program, to prepare them for First Communion. I have spoken to my younger son about my grandson being baptized; he now has his Birth Certificate.
My youngest granddaughter still needs to be baptized before her First Communion.

I received the books from Beverley yesterday. Jesus on the front cover with a basket of 5 loaves and 2 fish. I read today the gospel for this coming Sunday, as I usually do. The feeding of the multitudes, first Miracle of the loaves.

As I sat in the quiet, the Lord said to me:
Trust me my child in all that you do. I have food to give them that they know nothing of.

August 7, 2014
the Lord spoke to me about my experience with the little ones...my concerns...my fears...

Write these words my child.
when you teach, do not worry afterwards about how they will remember, how they will apply these teachings to their lives. I go with them. You want them to retain the gift of your presence, to remember you, but what I want is that they remember me and what I taught them through you. My words, my way, bring eternal life. Remember what Father Roger said to you: Take joy that the Lord rejoices in your presence with them, and know that I go with them, even as you stay behind.

Does the priest long to go with the parishioners when they leave Mass? No. He sends them out in my name, My Name, and he trusts, he knows that I go with them. And he prepares, he rests, and prepares for the next encounter.

So too you in this time: Prepare for the next encounter with them.

Trust that I go with them, and prepare for the next encounter:
in prayer
in mind, body, and spirit
in taking up your work
with great love and affection for them.

I send you out. But it is I who go with them when they go out, just as I who go with you when you are sent out.

I am well pleased my child.
Be of good cheer.
And know that I go before you to prepare the way of their hearts.

Pray for a humble heart
a willing spirit,
and an obedient will.

I go before you always.
Amen.
Thank you, Lord Jesus.

October 11, 2014 Saturday
As these things kept coming to me, the prayers at the beginning that I had prayed at Sarah's funeral service, I asked the Lord what he wanted me to see in all of this. And He said to me,
You have done all things well, My child. I am well pleased. You have helped them to move through their grieving, through word and action, to a place of hope, where life goes on.
Sarah is with Me and is well, and she will continue her work here with Me. She will watch over them, and pray for them. She will guide them. In My presence, she will accomplish more through Me, than she could ever have done on earth. For she is forever fervent now for the Kingdom of God that is found in the heart of her family. Trust Me My child. Trust in Me with all your heart, and continue to do the things that I put before you. The Kingdom of God is at hand, for you and for your family.
In Jesus' Name. Amen.

October 12, 2014
I spoke to Jack about how sad I felt about Sarah's passing, and he suggested I read Sirach on mourning, on grief.
It is a grace of the sacrament of marriage that a husband and a wife bring great strength and wisdom in their life for each other...
I read Sirach and will continue to do so, as it brings things into perspective.

My child, let your tears fall for Sarah,
and as one in great pain, begin the lament.
Lay out her body with due ceremony,
and do not neglect the burial.
Let your weeping be bitter and your wailing fervent;
make your mourning worthy of Sarah,
for one day, or two, to avoid criticism;
then be comforted for your grief.
For grief may result in death,
and a sorrowful heart saps one's strength.
When a person is taken away, sorrow is over;
but the life of the poor weighs down the heart.
Do not give your heart to grief;
drive it away, and remember your own end.
Do not forget, there is no coming back;
you do Sarah no good, and you injure yourself.
Remember her fate, for yours is like it;
yesterday it was hers, and today it is yours.
When Sarah is at rest, let her remembrance rest too,
and be comforted for her when her spirit has departed.
Sirach (Ecclesiasticus) 38:16-23

Sarah is with the Lord now,
and so, has more power to help us
and guide us
than she could ever have had
on this earth,
for she is close to the Lord
and intercedes for us now
she has the Lord's ear.

October 20, 2014
When you put your hand to the things of this world, there will be a sense of chaos, of disorder. When you put your hand to the things I put before you, this will bring peace and order to the earth, and to you, for your hand brings forth fruit, good things for this earth, things that will endure. This is the meaning of this word: Seek ye first the Kingdom of God, and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added unto you.
When you put your hands to the things I put before you, through Me you will bring order to the earth.
Taste and see that the Lord is Good.

October 31, 2014
Wisdom; called to leave the Ministry of Coordinator at Mary Queen of Peace Church, this follows Sarah's passing October 5th, 2014
It is normal that you should feel this way during this time of mourning and loss. Even I cried at the tomb of Lazarus. It is normal to want to leave everything on the side. At the same time, it is I who bring joy to the heart, as you have seen during your time of prayer this morning, for the joy of the Lord is your strength. You have done well, my child, in this work. Trust me when I say this, you have done well in this work. It is now time to move to something else. It is not a new thing. Have I not always done this with you? If it is not my will for you, your heart will not be there. Trust me my child. How is it that humans are always in fear of what will happen when they leave? Does the world end? Does everything come to a full stop? Is it not the opposite? Does the world not continue on? Even my Word speaks the truth of this. 'The ground remembers him no more.' Trust me, my child. If you want confirmation in my Word, look to my prophets, look to my saints. They too had difficulty leaving and going to a new place. Only my servant Abraham, when he was called, got up in faith and left all behind. You too, trust in me. The time is past for this work, and you have done well. Trust in me, my child. Do not be afraid to leave all behind. For I have a new thing in mind, for you and for all those around you. Trust in me, my child. Trust in me.

November 1, 2014
Meditation on John 6:37-40
I was thinking of Sarah, now with the Lord, and I felt peaceful, and this came to me:
If she is with me, she will be raised up on the last day.

Last Thursday I went to Maureen's and prayed the Rosary and the Divine Mercy. As I was praying, I asked the Lord to give me a sign that Sarah is with him in heaven. Where I sit I face the side wall, not the wall where most of the statues and icons are that are oiling, not the wall with the wall tapestry (Sacred Heart of Jesus) where the carpet is oiling. I face the side wall. On this wall in the centre is a large crucifix. To the left of the crucifix are two pictures: a picture of the Sacred Heart of Jesus and to the right of this picture, the Sacred Heart of Mary. I have never seen anything unusual, until that Thursday.

When I finished my prayer asking for a sign that Sarah is with him, recalling the words of both Father Roger and John Armour to pray for signs, I looked up and saw a woman's figure, kneeling just to the right of Mary's upraised hand, Mary's veil over her head and over her. The woman's robes were covered in red. The shed blood of Jesus I thought. It was Sarah, I thought and this was my sign. As I considered this, I recalled how from the first day of hearing her diagnosis, I had prayed to the Lord for her healing, and asked the Lord how to pray for her. Pray the Rosary for her is what had come to me, and this is what I have done every day since she received this diagnosis. Sometimes, most of the time, more than two rosaries. The night she died I prayed four rosaries for her. Mary has been interceding for her, and the Lord was showing me that Sarah is with him, and covered in the precious blood of Jesus.
She is with him.

This Thursday I was there again for the Divine Mercy and for the Rosary, and I thought again to ask for a sign and then I looked and the image was there for me.

November 2, 2014
I woke, my heart was heavy, a feeling of depression upon me. I fought, praying the Lord's Prayer, the Ave, the Gloria. I have lost my sense of joy, I thought. But the Lord spoke to me,
You have not lost your joy my child. It is there within you. The joy of the Lord is your strength.

Those around you do the things that please them, the things that give them strength. So it is with you. Do the things I put before you. There you will find your strength. You are not alone. Look to your husband. You are not alone. Trust in me, my child. I have put in place all that you need to get through this time. Do the things I put before you.

2016

March 26, 2016
In front of the Blessed Sacrament, in the Chapel of Repose at St. Luke's

Kneeling before the Chapel of Repose, these words came to me continually:

Monday, April 11, 2016 Artwork
Thoughts, answer to prayer, that are coming to me, that have come to me, for this artwork project the Lord has put before me.

Divine Mercy, Art Exposition, Sunday May 15, 2016, Noon to 7pm
Feast of Pentecost, Jesus Light of the World Parish, Mary Queen of Peace Church

Four line art drawings depicting the Awakenings (Saint John of the Cross), and The Three Conversions in the Spiritual Life (Fr. Reginald Garrigou-Lagrange, O.P.); presently hanging at the Ignatian Spirituality Centre of Montreal.

May 23, 2016
What is the Wall of Mary like in your life?

The Wall of Mary

These things have been coming to me for the past week...
See Prologue at beginning of this ebook.

This is the message you are to share, my child, with this new image that you will draw.
Thank you, Lord Jesus.
Thank you, Holy Mother.
Come Holy Spirit in the Name of Jesus.
Thank You Holy Father.
Praise You, Lord God...Amen.

May 28, 2016
These words have come to me during this month of May...not sure if I wrote them down anywhere...it concerna a friend's marriage:
It is by the hand of Mary that this marriage will be saved.
As I include this today, February 26, 2022, in this ebook, this marriage has been saved. Thank you, Lord God. Amen.

June 27, 2016
Matthew 8:18-22
Quote: Would-be followers of Jesus, from Lectio Divina Bible.

I am not saying here that you should not care about those you love. What I am saying is that there should be a detachment, an acceptance of my Will in each given situation. You must trust me, my child, in all my ways, for I am the Lord and my way is good. Trust me in all the things that you do, for I am the Way
the Truth
and the Life.
And my ways are perfect, as I am perfect.

I went with my husband to Saint Joseph's Oratory and gave into the Lord's hand my son and his situation, giving my prayer intentions into His Hands.
The situation is precarious.

July 2, 2016
purple flowers in the curb by the road.

We went for a walk, the morning my son left, and I saw in a crack between the road and the sidewalk, a bright purplish pinkish petunia, one single flower in full bloom, and I thought,

I saw it again, yesterday walking with my husband, still alive.

Will it be there today?!?

July 15, 2016
praying the Rosary, these things are coming to me...

Joyful Mysteries
a family, joy and promise of life, graces...we pray for...
the love of humility, charity towards my neighbour, the spirit of poverty, the virtue of obedience, the virtue of piety

Luminous Mysteries
in community, nourishment for the journey
we are not alone, graces...we pray for...
submission to God's will, devotion to Mary, the grace of conversion, the holy fear of God, thanksgiving to God

Sorrowful Mysteries
In this world you will have trouble
but do not fear, I have overcome
The human journey of each person, graces...we pray for...
true contrition for sin, the virtue of purity, moral courage, the virtue of patience, final perseverance

Glorious Mysteries
Heaven is on our side
If God is for us
who can be against. (Romans 8:30)
graces...we pray for...
the virtue of faith, the virtue of hope, the virtue of love, for a happy death, for eternal salvation

July 23, 2016
Only one thing is needed my child, and Mary has chosen the better way. My life is your movie. Meditate on the events of my life, my child. Trust me in this my child, and see if I will not open the floodgates of heaven and pour out so much blessing there will not be enough room for it.

The last few nights I have spent with my knitting in front of the television, looking for a good movie, something clean and wholesome, a comedy, romance, with a good healthy theme. There is nothing good on television.

August 10, 2016
Words I have received for a friend concerning her husband,
This marriage will be saved by the Hand of Mary.

August 24, 2016
Examen
If you don't hear my voice, don't move.

This is the gift of my Examen prayer this morning. I was feeling agitated inside, pulled in many directions: OSL course, video with Francis MacNutt, Living the Discerning Life DVDs, and the CDs on the Greater Discernment of Spirits, all my work for the Adoration Chapel at St. Luke's: the DVD of Katie Pfieffer and the French translation.

2017

October 26, 2017 a previous day's journey to early morning.
The Lord speaks to me
I permit you to go through these (dry)periods, so that you can help them (directees) find their way back.

And you do find your way back.

...So you do not build a nest that is not your own.

It has been a day lost. A battle. And one that I felt I lost. But I can see now that all was for a purpose.

I am at Peace now.

A struggle all day, nothing complicated. I needed to buy a pair of shoes, and the struggle was phenomenal. A day lost, I thought.

I ended in prayer. My Living With Christ missal (readings; October 25, 2017); my Prayer To Be Set Free; my daily devotionals. And the Scriptures. All point to my day's experience:

- Nehemiah mourning the destruction and loss of Jerusalem.
- The Psalm, By the rivers of Babylon; how could we sing the Lord's song in a foreign land?
- the Gospel, and the struggle to follow Jesus.

My devotionals, all the same message. Particularly The Ignatian Book of Days:
October 26, 2017
A Cure for Dryness of Soul.
- Boldness
- Push Ahead
- Pray More
- Act in confidence.

I am meeting with directees, who, like me, are all struggling. How can I meet with them if I am happy, have all in order in my life, and no struggles in my journey?

I cannot. Hence the Lord has permitted this. Thanks be to God for his indescribible mercy!
Thank you Lord Jesus.

I need not be so hard on myself.
And neither they.

For the Lord is with us, and will never leave.
Amen.

November 7, 2017
Tuesday during Communion

"The closer you come to me, the more you will know the sin that is in you; for all fall short of the Glory of God."

November 22, 2017
If you had mercy on me, a sinner, O Lord, you will surely have mercy on my children, and my grandchildren, who are doing so much good in this world.
(received in my heart as I read the story of the seven brothers and their mother in 2Maccabees 7:1, 20-30, today's first reading).

November 26, 2017
I know you find it hard at times, my child, to see the good things I have brought into the life of your younger son, but know this: I am there and ever present. I will never abandon him. If you do the things I put before you, or if you do not do them, either way, I am there. Never be in doubt of this. Sometimes in this world there is suffering that is hard to understand, but I the Lord always understand for I am God, King of all creation. You are right when you say that I see 'the bigger picture'. Do not doubt my child, but believe. All will be well: have I not already told you this? Do you not see this in the signs I put before you? Trust in me, my child. This child of yours will be well, and all will be well in his life.

The Lord is good, and his mercy endures forever. Take heart and do not be afraid. You have seen, and you will continue to see the goodness of the Lord, as the psalmist says, in the land of the living. Take heart and do not be afraid.

I your Lord and King will never abandon you, nor your children, nor your grandchildren. I will bring them all into the kingdom of Glory and Peace. And they shall see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living.

Take heart and do not be afraid. Trust in me with all your heart, your mind, and your spirit. I am ever near and will never forsake or abandon you or your loved ones.

Look to your husband and let this be the greatest sign for you. You are not alone, and never shall be. I your Lord and God am ever with you, even to the end of the age.

Now go to your day and trust me my child. I have blessings for you and your loved ones that you can never imagine or hope to imagine.

The Lord is near. Allelujah. Allelujah. The Lord is near and will never forsake or abandon you or your loved ones.

The Lord is near.
Amen and Amen. Never fear my child.
The Lord is near.
Beside you, behind you, before you, under you and above you. The Lord is near. Amen.

Now go to your day and know that I am with you and your loved ones.

This one shall know the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living.
This one shall know.

Today is my son's Brithday. 43.
My heart will trust in the Lord for goodness in the land of the living for him.
Amen.

December 6, 2017
Received during last night's Adoration prayer time

Before the Blessed Sacrament, the Lord spoke to my heart.
What do you want me to do for you, my child?
A few times. And I began to ask for prayer for different people...

for a friend:
Tell her this: that I know her pain; I carry it in my heart; I carry her heart in my heart. I carry her children's hearts and their pain as well. Not to fear. I will never abandon her or forsake her. I know her pain. I carry it in my heart. I carry her heart in my heart.

for my younger son:
Tell him this: he has all he needs to take care of his son. Only this he lacks: common sense.
Listen to his mother, and hear her words now. Be patient. The time will come when his son shall return home. First things first. Bring order to your life and be patient. The time will come.

for the sister of an acquaintance:
I will heal her because you have asked. Do not fear.
(The woman was healed and discharged from hospital.)

for a friend and her family
Their battle has been a long one, but it will come to an end.
(There has been a breakthrough)

healing for my husband's neck:
This will take time and patience. Trust me my child.
(His neck is fine now, January 2019).

for the faith journeys of my three youngest grandchildren
It shall come to pass."

And I prayed for other friends and family members...

For myself I prayed:
'For a closer walk with Him, that I may come to know Him dearly', is what I prayed, 'that I would write; for wisdom with my directees.'
It was a good time of quiet before the Lord.
(Even today as I proofread this text, I can see that my prayers are being answered. Thank you, Lord God!)

Thank You Lord; you hear the desires of our hearts. Amen

December 12, 2017
We are in the midst of family difficulties, ready for Christmas celebrations. I have great Peace, trusting in the Lord Jesus for all, and in Mary to pray for us. Thank you Lord God.

When the enemy is doing wrong in our lives and causing chaos and distress, and we, looking at it, are drawn into it, he has victory of us too, as we focus on what is bothering us or distressing us, even the objects of our love. He has won us over to his side of darkness.
On the other hand, if we, catching ourselves, realized from where all this comes and see to where we have been drawn, stop, and turn now to the Father of Lights, we move into the Light of Jesus Christ, who is the Truth. Now our desires we give to Him Who is the Truth and we give all the suffering and the situation we are in, into His hands, so that now His Truth shines there also, as well as on us. The enemy now has Someone to deal with over Whom he can never be victorious, but Who has now Victory over him. Now we have God on our side, Who has won the Victory for us in Christ Jesus.

The situation now, of whatever it is, is now in the Hands of God, and no longer in the hands of the enemy.

Our Lady of Guadalupe, Pray for us. In Jesus' Name.
Amen.

I had read this beautiful prayer which follows, and then given all that I am to God:
Source: Gems of Devotion, Rev. T.G. May
Prayer For All In Trouble, page 17
Nihil Obstat: George J Ziskovsky
Imprimatur: Rev. Msgr Ambrose V. Hayden

Holy Virgin, in the midst of your glorious days,
do not forget the sadness of earth,
Cast a look of goodness on those who are suffering,
who are fighting against difficulties

Have pity on those who love one another
and who have been separated

Have pity on the lonliness of our hearts.
Have pity on the weakness of our faith

Have pity on the troubled objects of our love.

Have pity on those who are weeping,
on those who are praying,
on those who are seized with fear.

Give to all of us hope and peace with justice.
Amen.

2018

January 29, 2018
Mary Queen of the World Cathedral, Mass and Veneration
St. Francis Xavier Canadian Relic Pilgrimmage.

Examen prayer
As I searched for gratitude, filled with great joy.

The rest of the day was here, where I am still sitting at Mary Queen of the World, first pew right side, so that the arm of St. Francis Xavier is just in front of me. St. Xavier also did a lot of healing. So, Society of the Jesuits (spiritual direction and also healing ministry). Thank you Lord, for this wonderful sign for my life. I asked the Lord if there was anything he would like me to take a closer look at and he said, I am well pleased my child.

January 30, 2018
I read this prayer (below) and my heart is warmed with consolation, so full of love for the Lord Jesus, almost unbearable. For this love is not for any reason, nor for the blessings I received, nor for heaven or hell, it is just a love that is fervent and pure. I thanked the Lord for it is only by His grace that I can feel this love for him, not possible on my own. Thank you Lord Jesus for this fire of love that burns within me for you.
Thank you!
(Prayer to Saint Francis Xavier in booklet from pilgrimmage, page 8, Conversion)

Pray:
Father, I believe that you know me and love me. I have not always chosen to love you, and have broken my relationship with you through my sins.

Thank you for sending your Son Jesus who proved your love for me on the cross.

Lord Jesus, I open the door of my heart and I invite you to be at the center of my life - to be my Saviour and my Lord. Direct me by your Holy Spirit and help me to live the Gospel with my whole life. Amen.

St. Francis Xavier, pray for me. Amen
Prayed the prayer for myself and then for family members and acquaintances.

(Prayer to Saint Francis Xavier in booklet, page 9, Healing) ...prayer for my back and Jack's neck and that the Lord will bless our prayer time at the Cathedral together.
"Blessed is the fruit of thy womb Jesus" stands out for me; Mary loves to hear that her Son is blessed, and that we are grateful. Blessed is the fuit of thy womb, Jesus. Amen.

Pray:
Dear God, I entrust to you my health concerns and I ask for your healing. I know you love me and care for me. I know you have prepared a place for me in your Kingdom.

Jack was Commander for the Honour Guard today, for the Knights of Columbus.

Montreal, 2018 CANADIAN RELIC PILGRIMAGE St. Francis Xavier

2022

July 15, 2022
Journal entry, during morning prayer

Matthew 12:1-8
"I tell you, something greater than the temple is here."
"For the Son of Man is Lord of the Sabbath."

Lord Jesus, you are my Lord, my rest, my Sabbath.
You are my Lord, my Sabbath.

In all of this, trust me my child. I will never forsake or abandon you. You too are my rest. For the Son of Man has nowhere to lay his head. The children of the Kingdom do not yet understand this. Here I am in the Heavenlies, and my Mother is my Comfort, in her humanity. I have need of Mankind for it is for you that I came. Fully human, fully divine, I am complete for I have the Father and the Holy Spirit with me, in me, above me, behind me, below me. Yet, I have need of humankind. This is what this means, and continues to mean. In me, mankind is complete. You too in me, have a place to rest, for I am in you and you are in me. Yet I have need of all humankind.
The Son of Man has no where to lay his head.
In my humanity, I have need of all of humankind. For it is for this reason I came, to redeem man and to bring him into communion with Father, Son and Holy Spirit. Come my child, share in the joy that heaven has for you, I in you and you in me. You will be my rest, a place to lay my head and to reign, and I will be your rest, a place to lay your head and to reign also in my heart, for my heart too has need of you. Ask and you shall receive, seek and you shall find, knock and the door will be opened to you. Whatever you ask in my name, and according to my will, it will be done for you, for you are mine and I am yours. We are one.
Amen.

Thank you Lord for this sweet understanding of your love and need of me, lowly creature that I am. I console you as you console me.

This gives me a new understanding of the words about the joy in heaven when one sinner converts. Thank you Lord.
How great is your love, this even brings new understanding to my heart.
And that we add to what is lacking in the Cross.
All of humanity needs to be at the Cross, worthy or unworthy as we all are, to console your humanity for what you suffered for us on the Cross.

Thank you Lord God, Jesus my Love and my Heart.

Help me not to add to your sorrow, but to be there with you.
Amen.
Jesus, in his Divinity is complete with the Father and the Holy Spirit, for there is Completeness in the Trinity of God.

Jesus in his humanity is in need of all of humanity, as the Mother of God shows us in her presence in heaven, interceding continually for us. Jesus in his humanity in the Heavenly places is in need of humanity, a place to lay his head, in my heart, and in the heart of all of humanity. As Mary comes into the throne room of heaven in her full humanity, she is a consolation and a delight for Jesus. She has danced as Wisdom before him for all of humanity. Let my heart be emptied of all material things that Jesus the King of Glory may enter in, and find a place to rest his head.
Thank you Lord. So hard to put in writing what you are bringing to my heart.

As I have need of you, so too you have need of me.

"The Son of Man has no place to rest his head."

Amen.

July 17, 2022
Journal entry

Remember when receiving the Eucharist
As you partake of the Body and Blood
of Christ
You too become Mary's child
From whom Jesus drew
his humanity when
enfolded in her body and blood
in the womb;
You too now partaking
of her body and blood
in the Full Presence of Christ
his Body and Blood now too
in full divinity and
in full humanity
Through the Fiat of your own Mother Mary.
Amen.

On the morning this came to me, I woke with two songs in my heart, sung often during my evening Rosary Prayer Group, one English, the other French...
Couronnée d'Étoiles (Crowned with Stars), and, Be With Us Mary
...and these songs stayed with me as I prepared for my day.
I came to my prayer time and sang...
And then these words started coming to my heart from the Lord, and I wrote them down.
Thank you, Lord.

2024

January 20, 2024
Journal entry
The Lord's Word concerning the Parish

The time is short that they must be stopped, before they come to the point of not stopping and not coming back.

The time is short that they may be stopped, before they come to the point of not being able to stop, and not coming back.

The time is short that they may not stop, before they come to the point of not being able to stop, and not coming back.

You must work to the end to save those around you, those who sin, and those who are sinned against.

Trust in me, my child. I am ever near, and will not forsake or abandon you. I am well pleased that you have said yes to this work. Trust me my child. I will not forsake or abandon you, for if I do I abandon myself.

Trust in me my child. The time is short, for those who sin and for those who are sinned against.

January 25, 2024
Journal entry
I am reminded by the Lord of the call upon my life, the healing ministry. I read the word the Lord has given to me on January 20, 2024

I am fully encouraged to go forward in this work. Mother Mary pray for me.

I cannot do this without the Lord's help.

My child, you must trust in me for this work, for you are right in saying that you cannot do this without my help. Yet I am here with you, continually, for I have need of you, your hands, your heart, your feet. I am ever near.

Do not worry, do not fear, all will be well. Only this I ask, that you come before me at all times. This is primordial, your time with me.

Trust in me my child. They will come.

Now go to your day and trust in me. I will put in place all that is needed. Trust in me. Amen.

January 29, 2024
Journal entry
Mark 5:1-20
Jesus heals the Gerasene Demoniac

Write these words my child.
You are right in your thinking. The man is hurting himself. This is what the evil one does for he has no power outside of himself against human beings, and so he lies and taunts those to come to destruction of themselves.
Pray for those who have fallen by the wayside, pray for their healing and wholeness. Nothing can come from outside to harm, but it is what is within that will come forth.
We want to see fruit but at times there is none. Why is this? Is it not that the heart is divided?

Trust in me my child. I will come to the aid of my people. Only this I ask: faithfulness and love.

These are tools that the enemy of human nature lacks because I am not there.
In me you will find faithfulness and love forevermore. Trust in me my child: I shall rescue this church.
Speak from this now:
Love and faithfulness that comes from the Lord shall rescue us all and restore us from this pain we are enduring.
Thank you, Lord God, Mother Mary, Lord Jesus Christ and all the angels and saints, Lord Have mercy.

February 1, 2024
Journal entry
Adoration online

You are now to become a shut-in. All that you will do will be in silence. You shall hear my voice, and you shall speak my word, but you shall do this from the sanctity of your home, no large triumphs shall go out, no music and fanfare, but a quiet voice speaking the truth.
I shall speak Truth to you and you shall hear, and share the word. Already things are in place. This quiet place has been prepared. Your writing will go out. It is time.

Trust me my child. All will be well. You shall glory in the shadow of my wing and I shall hold you in the palm of my hand. All will be well.
Only trust in me. Trust in me.
Amen. I will say it again. Amen.
Trust in me my child. I shall make your righteousness shine like the noonday sun. It is time. Amen.

March 11, 2024
My experience of having a heart attack was such that I need to document what happened and how I lived this experience.

I was sitting in front of my computer, ordering a gift of towels for my grandson's fiancee, for the shower for their upcoming marriage. I began to feel an ache in my jaws, and then a pressure in my chest that was getting stronger. I went downstairs and got an asperin from Jack's pill bottle, and returned upstairs to sit on the little couch in the office.

I sat quietly, waiting, and waiting for Jack. By the time he came, it was pretty strong and I waited for him to come up and said that I thought something was happening. I asked him if he could take my blood pressure. He went down and brought up the one he had downstairs.
My blood pressure was high.

March 12, 2024

All is light, wather, healing, hope, promise, joy, new creation and more for me today.

Yes, there is pain in my arm, and I feel fragile and weak, but when I think back, recall, the joy of communion with God on the operating table last Monday, there is only consolation, and gratitude. How could I have lived these things in this way without the Lord?!? How present he was, The Trinity, and Mary and the saints and angels. I was never alone. And my heart was brave because He was there.
quiet, obedient, surrendering, loving, praying, thanking, polite, obedient, grateful, kind. I lived my passion on that table. Thank you Lord God.

March 18, 2024
Journal entry
Psalm
The Lord's word It is done. The Letters to the Diocese.
Father Francis has been restored to the Parish around March 3rd. No longer will priests be removed for administrative complaints.
I suffered a heart attack on March 5th, 2024.

My child, I am well pleased. In all of these things you have stood firm, you have not faltered or changed in your way. It pleases me now that even in your pain, you turn to me, to give all that you are. I see this in your heart, I hear it in your prayers. You are ever humble before me. You do not change. Look and see the work of your hands: They come, even those who have faltered will come home. My heart is pleased with your heart. No rest and go to your day. It is done. Amen.
It is done.

Thank you, Lord, for your Love, and your Grace. For your Mercy and faithfulness to me, a sinner, a weak thing that has no place to be near you, but I draw near. I love you, Lord. I love you. Amen Lord Jesus. Amen.

Thank you Lord for rescuing us from the evil one. Amen.

reflections...

I feel these days following my heart attack and surgery to place 4 stents in the right main coronary artery...

like I am in a monastery in my home...
even in the pain in my arm, the difficulty sleeping, writing, I am at peace, and trust in the Lord to care for me.

Yesterday I was able to receive the Anointing of the Sick from Father Sandry.
Thank you, Lord.

The Lord is indeed my Refuge. Psalm 46

R. The mighty Lord is my refuge.

my strength
a very present help in trouble
God is in the midst of the city
God will help it when the morning dawns
The Lord of hosts is within us
The God of Jacob is our refuge
Come, behold the works of the Lord;
see what awesome things
he has brought on the earth. R

March 21, 2024
Journal entry
Genesis 17:3-9
The Lord: The gift...our union

The gift, my child, is our pure union, father and child, which nothing can change. Your faith comes from this union. Yet whether you exercise this faith or not, is your choice. I can only love. I cannot, will not, force love unto my children, for it is of their free will that they must choose to come. I can give the gift, but it is to each one to decide, to receive and exercise these gifts, or to refuse them. Free will. Trust me, my child, for there is also grace, grace and mercy. For I am an everlasting God with an everlasting Love for my own, those I have brought into the world, mankind. Trust in me always, for the door is always open for those whose desire is to enter in. It will never be closed. Only pray, pray for those whose faith is weak, torn between the world and heaven, for it is for them that I came, to heal and to hold tightly, lest they fall and cannot rise on their own. Only trust in me. The greatest day comes, the Day of Divine Mercy for all. Pray for those who I have given to pray for the Divine Mercy, when the doors of heaven open wide and Divine Mercy comes forth to save those who are lost. Pray the Divine Mercy with fervor and with hope, for it is the ultimate day of salvation for all souls. Pray and encourage the prayer of all for my Divine Mercy to be poured out on mankind.
Pray.

Holy Friday begins the day of Divine Mercy. Amen. Lord Jesus. Amen.

I had the thought as I read Genesis 17:3-9
"And I will give to you, and to your offspring after you, the land where you are now an alien, all the land of Canaan, for a perpetual, and I will be their God."
The thought came: This was a gift for Canaan.

God giving the land to Abraham, was a gift for the people of Canaan, for God is going to be their God.

The Lord spoke to my heart then, to consider the gifts he has given me.

The first that came forth, and I thought of so many, and I thought even further. The gift is God's Love to give me faith. The gift is God Himself who is Love before I even was a thought to him.

and then the Lord spoke.

March 22, 2024
John 10:31-42 Revelation
"Jesus answered, 'Is it not written in your law, "I said, you are gods"?"

They missed a beautiful message here, one that I have lived and continue to live. In the Lord, we pay and God answers us. I have lived and seen many works of God, and I have written and shared about many of them.

We are in union with God and like Jesus we do the works of the Father, in Jesus' Name. Thank you Father, for this beautiful gift to be in union with you Lord God.

Come Holy Spirit in Jesus' Name.
Amen.

Since I asked Father Sandry to bless me with the Sacrament of the Anointing of the Sick, my right arm, which up to that point had been very painful, and giving me difficulty to sleep, is improving to the point of almost being well. Still some healing to come.

Thank you Lord, for your Love and Mercy to me. Amen.

Thank you Mother Mary. Amen.

March 28, 2024 Holy Thursday
We are livign a different Triduum this year.

Staying home tonight, and not going to the washing of the feet.

My breathing is not great, the last measure was 8, then 9 breaths perminute. If I catch anything, I may end up in hospital. So I will watch St. Luke's Mass online, and then go to the online Rosary Group. Spiritual Communion.

I sit in solidarity with those who must stay home. I am not alone. The Lord is near. And Jack is always here.
How good is the Lord.

I live a Peace that passes all human understanding these days. I am happy to take my pills. This is Grace, the prayer I prayed on the table in surgery. Thank you Lord.

I am also happy that I have lived, that I am living this! I learned so much about myself, about the Lord and Mother Mary.

They were with me the whole time.
in the quiet
in the pain
in the slipping away
in the coming back.

gentle, quiet, respectful, grateful, Peace, freedom, prayer, love, surrender, trust, patience, guidance, love,
I lived all these things
on the table as I went through the process of angiogram, then the work of placement of 4 stents into the main left coronary of my heart.
I gave the pain, praying to the Lord to use it for good. In the quiet time I prayed for my children, grandchildren, and Jason and Devon, that they would have peace and comfort if I died. I accepted I could die and entrusted myself into the Lord's hands, the only way to heaven. I prayed that I would not just accept the medications I would have to take for a lifetime, but that I would embrace, welcome the medication with much joy.
(thinking of Sirach and medicine)
I gave any fear that could be there to the Lord and prayed that he would fill me with his Perfect Love which casts out all fear.
I prayed for the surgeon that the Lord guide his hands, and when the bleeding at my wrist would not stop, that the wisdom of the Lord as in James 1:5 come to all present. They made a heavy duty compress on my wrist area.
I was totally at Peace throughout it all. Truly blessed.
Amen.

April 2, 2024
John 20:11-18
"I have seen the Lord."

in my life, most especially recently, on the table in the operating room.
And Mother Mary was there too.

Trust in me my child for all things, for all will be well. Your doctors will take good care of you. Trust in me, my child.
Trust in me. Amen.

April 6, 2024

Trust in me, my child. All will be well. Many have come and gone who have done my will, but of all of them, you have been the most faithful. You have been with me in sickness and health; I see your heart, nothing in you has failed because of trial or illness. You have continued on. Trust in me for the things of your life and of your children and grandchildren. I will never forsake them, just as I will never forsake you. Now go to your day. The time to write will come. I will put it in place for you. All is not lost. Trust in me. Trust in my heart. Trust in my Divine Mercy. I am ever near. Amen.

I am blessed, my heart moved to tears this morning out of love for my Lord, and much gratitude. Heart full of Love for God. Thank you. Dear Lord. My life is yours, to do with as you wish. Use me for the kingdom in whatever way you wish.
Amen.
Use me for the advancement of the Kingdom.
In Jesus' Name. Amen. Amen!

~

The Scripture spoke to me in a new way today.
Jesus appeared to Mary Magdeline, from whom Jesus delivered 7 demons. The apostles did not believe her.

The two disciples also who were walking along, Jesus appeared to them. The apostles did not believe them as well.

Then Jesus appears to the 11, and upbraids them for not believing.

Sometimes Leadership in the Church also does not take seriously the words of the laity, perhaps judging them as in Jesus' day.

Can you imagine??
A possessed woman of not good repute and she says Jesus appeared to her!?
Twodisciples doubting and discussing along the way on the way to Emmaus, not Jerusalem. And the Lord appears to them?!

The Lord has set an example for the Church, to confirm what is heard, seen, etc. And to raise it up for daily reading of the Scriptures.

Thanks be to God!

April 11, 2024 Mary's child, daughter
Through the Eucharist
I am Mary's child, her daughter, in body, blood, soul and divinity.
Mother Mary has been assumed into heaven, in her glorified body.

I partake of the Holy Eucharist, and Christ fully present under the appearance of bread...body, blood, soul and divinity of Our Lord Jesus Christ...enters into me.
In this I become truly God's child, soul and divinity, and Mary's also body and blood, as her blood and flesh are in Jesus' body and blood.

This has been coming to me this morning as I sit in prayer.

April 15, 2024
Journal entry

I am well pleased my child. I have entrusted much to you, and you have been faithful. Only this you lack: discipline for your hours of sleep. But this is easily rectified. Pray your rosary, and go to bed. This is my word to you, and you will do well to follow it. For the alternative is discomfort. at this point in your life, it is rest that you need. all else will fall into place. I am not finished with you, my child. There is much to be done. Trust in me, my child. Trust in me. Amen.

I have been going to be too late, and I have had a few "incidences" because of this :
I felt sick and shaky one day.
My feet were pins and needles and my legs numb on another day.
On the most recent day I woke and the room was spinning. This lasted a couple of days.

I feel there is another letter in me for Monseigneur Lépine, to suggest formation for all who are in leadership or ministry to the faithful in a parish, and that is the teaching of Saint Ignatius of Loyola on the Discernment of Spirits. (as presented by Father Timothy Gallagher in his DVD series and online videos).

This I leave with the Lord.
a Thank you and a warning at the same time.

I prayed with the Scripture, "Test the spirits" and for the Lord to confirm this in His Word.
In Jesus' Name. Amen.

The Scripture that has come to me as confirmation is from 2Timothy 4:2

"Preach the word; be prepared in season and out of season; correct, rebuke, and encourage, with great patience and careful instruction."
2Timothy 4:2.

April 17, 2024
Journal entry
Acts 8:1b-8

"Philip went down to the city of Samaria and proclaimed the Messiah to them. The crowds with one accord listened eagerly to what was said by Philip, hearing and seeing the signs that he did, for unclean spirits, crying with loud shrieks, came out of many who were possesed; and many others who were paralyzed or lame were cured. So there was great joy in that city."

Pray the rosary for them, those you know who are sick, and I will heal them. Remember your time in the operating table when I was close to you and my Mother as well. Meditate on the mysteries as I have said, you will find your life therein, and also the lives of those you pray for. Have courage my child. All will be well. I am well please with all you do. Trust in me. All will be well. Amen. Thanks be to God. Amen.

Directed to pray the Rosary for others, with all the mysteries of the Rosary.
I am well pleased my child, well pleased.

Thank you Lord, for your love and your grace in my life and in the lives of all these. Amen.

April 20, 2024
Journal entry

Pray the Rosary my child. I will hear your prayers. Remember how it was for you during your stay at the hospital, and pray. Did I not answer your prayers? Hear me and know that it is I who heal, it is I who call, it is I who direct all in the way they should go. Trust in me my child, and I will make your righteousness shine like the noonday sun. Trust in me.

As to this letter, sit and write and the words will come. You know the way. This is not just for you, but it is for my sons, my children, my fellow priests whom I have called to lead my people. Sit and pray. Sit and write.
Trust in me my child. Trust in me. Amen.

The Lord's Word to me concerning direction to pray the rosary for healing (for persons I was praying for), and to write the (final) letter to Monseigneur Lepine.

Today's readings are of the healing of Aeneas, a paralytic who had been bedridden for eight years, and Tabitha who died and was healed to life, and of Jesus' teaching of his body and blood for eternal life.

The Lord also directed me to sit at the computer and write to Monseigneur Lepine about the video and about my suggestion to teach all parish and diocesan staff the rules of discernment of Saint Ignatius of Loyola, and to provide the audio link and the DVD teaching.
This can be done with the help of the Ignatian Spirituality Centre of Montreal.
Thank you Lord God.

May 3, 2024 John 14:6-14, 1Corinthians 15:1-8, Psalm 19
Journal entry

I speak with you as I always wish, my child...I am never far but always near. Trust in me.

This too is my will; when you meet with someone, is it not I who call. I am pleased with this one. Her desire is to please me in all that she does. I am ever near. I will speak to her heart...I am ever near. Trust in me, my child.

May 13, 2024
Wisdom as in James1:5
Re Course Tim Gallagher; Confirmatiion Philemon 1:12
Living the Discerning Life (Rules 1-14)

There is a deep wound my child. This parish is in great need of healing. Yes, this is a course that will help. I will guide you. Write the Letter to Msgr Lepine. Speak to Fr. Francis. All will be well. Begin in the administrative team. I know you have health concerns. Have I not always provided. I will be gentle. You will not be alone.
The Holy Spirit will be present. And I will heal you. I will guide you. There will be others. You will not be alone. This is my will and it will be done. If not by you, then by another. Do not fear. I am with you always.

Thanks be to the Lord.

I had received this thought before to offer the course by Timothy Gallagher for all the teams in the diocese.
But to start with our parish.
Now it comes for our church. It is time.
It came to me during Communion yesterday.
And this morning again with the thought that it will also bring healing.

We needed to wait for Fr Francis. 1John 4:1
The verse of confirmation:
"I am sending him, who is my very heart, back to you." Philemon
(he has come back to the Parish - not an easy place at all times)

I have spoken to Jack, even before I prayed.

Once a week course.

I also will write Monseigneur a letter.
The last, with a suggestion ot offer the course to all teams - requirement for the job so to speak.

Confirmation for last letter, continuation of previous letter.

Thank you Lord for your Love and your Grace.
Amen.

May 15, 2024
Journal entry
John 17:11b-19, Psalm 68, Acts 29:28-58

My child, I am with you always to the end of time. There is nothing that can separate us, neither death or distance or time or person. I will always be near. Trust in me.
Amen.

I had prayed, having read all my readings today because I had the thought that in my death, I could be separated from God, until the resurrection.

I had prayed before this that my getting to heaven is totally in God's hands, not by my merit or any goodness I have, but by what Jesus has done forme on the Cross. Then this thought came, that I could die and there would be nothing until the final resurrection.

The Lord then spoke this word above to me. Thank you Lord God. Amen.

May 22, 2024
How I love the Lord.
How I love His Word!

Jack has a miserable cold.
Fr Francis coming to see us.
Our grandson graduates today.
I will request the teaching of the 14 Rules of Discernment to Fr Francis.

Thank you, Lord God. Amen.

May 26, 2024
discernment for directee; Fr F
Father Francis
I had this thought...

So too Fr Francis is being called elsewhere my child. Trust in me. He was here for a season, and I have new plans for you, for your parish. Trust in me.

You are right in your thinking: he has been returned to clear his name.

Now is a new season, for him and for your parish. Trust in me my child.
Trust in me. Amen.

May 27, 2024
Journal entry
Wisdom as in James 1:5, to see my younger son's situation through God's eyes.

The Lord said to me as I prayed and sorrowed before Him about my son...

"Does your heart hurt?" He asked.
"Yes" I answered.
"And so does mine. This is what I died for my child, all the pain you suffer is in my heart too" (here I said "I'm sorry, Lord."
"I have died for him as so I will be there to care for him. Regardless of what you see with your eyes, trust in me. For it was for this that I came...to take into myself all the pain and sin of the world. Trust in me. If I feel this pain, I act. There is naught that you can do, for you are frail and weak and old. But for me, I am the Lord. You must trust in Me my child, completely and with all your heart, mind, and soul. Otherwise, you will perish.
All your life you have struggled, and I was there but you did not give all to me. You always held back a little. Trust is your word. Remember that. Trust in me, my child. All will be well. You will see that all manner of things will be well. Trust in me.
Now go to your Rosary group. Pray, and find Peace. This is the Way. Turn to my Mother. For she knows my heart. And all will be well. Amen."

May 29, 2024
1Peter 1:18-25; Psalm 147; Journal entry
Trust in me my child. All will be well, and all manner of things will be well. Take this Word and carry it with you. Trust in me. Trust in my Word. Your hope and faith will guide you. The journey has been long, and it is almost done. I have a new plan for this church. Alll will be well. Trust in me. Amen.

Just like Jesus, we are called to serve one another. The Servant Song comes to me.

June 20, 2024
Matthew; The Lord's Prayer I love you my child with a love everlasting, and your loved ones as well. Trust in me. There is much to be done, and you shall do it. The Lord's Prayer, my prayer, is my pièce de resistance. Herein you will find my heart and desire for mankind. The time is coming when many will fall, faith is not an easy thing in times of trial. But you and those who serve like you, will be there to continue on, to serve and to help those in distress. Trust in me, my child. Trust in me.

I feel much love and consolation.

When I read about Elijah my heart was full and felt such love and Peace. Then the Gospel reading of the Lord's Prayer became like a prayer and continued so. I stayed in that place with the Lord, full of Peace and Love and Consolation.

This to me is also a confirmation of the book by Josphine Lombardi, On Earth as it is in Heaven, to lead people through it to prepare for the Jubilee Year 2025. Pilgrims of Hope.

June 23, 2024
Journal entry

When these occurances come, my child, give thanks, for you are counted as one who has given your life to the Lord. For those who do not walk with me, or talk with me, cannot see. But you my child have been given eyes to see. So give thanks. What is the value of being seen well through the eyes of your fellow man? It is the eyes of the Lord that must be pleased, and God alone deserves glory for a life. If others do not see the glory, what is that to me? You walk in my glory, and continue along your way, for I love you with a love everlasting. Trust in me, my child, trust in me. Amen.

I felt very hurt today. A family member had come to my city, did not let me know, but went to see other family members in another city. I felt very hurt and gave it to the Lord.

June 24, 2024
(early morning hours)

I have been having a difficult time at night.

The Lord spoke to my heart in my distress to Him...

You need to accept my child, that your children are grown. They are no longer the little ones of your youth. They are men, and mine now. You need to mourn this part of your life and continue on. You are not less than you were, but you are now a new creation. Your life is mine as you have given it to me. Now trust, trust in me.

Jesus I trust in you. Jesus I trust in you.
Jesus I trust in you. Jesus, Jesus, I trust in you.

June 24, 2024
Psalm 139 Reading.
Revelation "inward parts"

Trust in me my child, all will be well. I know you and I knpw your heart. All will be well. Even the inmost being have I created. All has to come from some where. and that some where is Me. Trust in me, for I know you and I know your ways.
Trust in me.
Amen.

I read:
"For it was you who formed my inward parts;
you knit me together in my mother's womb.
Psalm 139.

I understood from this, that not only was my body created by God, but my soul, who I am, and he filled me with gifts over the years.

Who can take credit for the spirit within...only God who formed me, who created me, my personalit, my essence, my very being.

Thanksgiving Lord for your indescribable love and mercy, touching me in my humble life.
Amen. Thank you Jesus, Jesus I trust in you. Amen.

June 29, 2024
Journal entry

I am the One who blesses you with all Wisdom. See even now, your Peace has returned to you. Bring all before me, all trials, all joys, all difficulties, all confusions, and I will give you rest. Trust in me my child. Trust in me. This too shall pass.
Amen.

I began to feel breathless this morning after breakfast and with it the difficulty to breathe.

And then as I sat in prayer, the thought came that it was about one hour or so after I took my medication, the pill included was the one with these side effects.

And I read my Scriptures and sat, and I became agitated, could not focus on the reading, and, I brought this to the Lord and prayed for wisdom as in James 1:5. and I began to feel at Peace. After the Lord spoke to me. Thank you Lord.

July 1, 2024
Journal entry

Trust in me my child. I know your heart. You are your harshest taskmaster. You are not this way with others. "Father, forgive them for they know not what they do." Yet for yourself there is no compassion, no patience, only condemnation and harsh criticism. Trust in me my child, for I am humble and gentle of heart, and you will find rest for your soul. Only this you lack, balance.

The way is clear now. The letter is slated for today. Take time to sit and write. All will be well. Trust in me, for I have plans for your life. All will be well, in your heart, and soul. All will be well.
Now go to your day and know this:
I am ever with you
and will not forsake
or abandon you.
I am your Lord,
Amen.

Thank you Lord for your love and your grace in my life, for your kindness and patience with me. I will continue to aspire to a more devoted life, but with the grace you speak of, to be patient with myself, as I am with others, to be compassionate with myself, as I try to be with others, and as you are with me. Mother Mary, please grant me the grace of patience with myself, and the grace of a sense of balance
balance in my life
my day, my heart.
In Jesus' Name. Amen

The Scripture today speaks about following Jesus.
Jesus says he has no place to
lay his head.
This to me is not a complaint but a Truth:
His home is in heaven, in the heart of the Trinity.

This is where my heart should be, finding balance between heaven and earth.
My home is also in heaven.
Yet my life on this earth is in need of balance. For I have children, grandchildren, a husband. My devotion is on earth as in heaven.
Many birthday, this month and last month...
Jordan, Alexandra, Jessica
Ashlen, Jacob, Justin, Jessica, Brandon's wife,
and other personal persons.
Many blessings, many joys, many commitments of love.
Amen.

July 10, 2024
Journal entry
Hosea 10:1-3, 7-8, 12; Psalm 104; Meditation on the psalm today in Prions en église.

My child, all of these things I have for you. Yet you run in all directions. This is the enemy who would distract you. Follow me. Seek my heart. Look only to your Heavenly Mother. There you will find peace, joy, and balance. Love is all around. Yet human beings seek it in far places, places far from the heart. For the world has much to offer, but it is fleeting. It passes, like a ship in the night, and is gone. With me love is everlasting, eternal. There is no end to it.
Follow me and know my heart.
Follow me and know my mind.
Follow me and know my love.
the Lord is near. The Kingdom has come to you O man, and you seek it afar. Only come to me,and I will make your righteousness shine like the noonday sun. Never again will you hunger, never again will you thirst. And the things of the earth will grow strangely dim, in the light of my glory and grace. Amen.

Lord help me to find balance.
My desire is for complete surrender. But I do not have the strength on my own. But you do, so I lean on you for all that I need. Alone I am helpless and lost.

I do not want to do what I want to do
to buy what I want to buy
to eat what I want to eat.

I want you Lord, Take Lord Receive me and all that I am. Transform me, for on my own I am lost, and need you to rescue me. Amen.

Jesus I trust in you. Jesus I trust in you. Jesus I trust in you. The Scripture that stood out for me today is the Psalm, and foremost, a word from Hosea 10.

"Sow for yourselves righteousness;
reap steadfast love;
break up your fallow ground;
for it is time to seek the Lord,
that he may come and rain righteousness upon you."
Hosea 10:1-3, 7-8, 12.

Thank you Lord God, Mother Mary, and all the angels and saints. Amen.

In our struggles, the Lord comes. He will never abandon or forsake the work of his hands.
Amen. Allelujah. Amen.

The Psalm encourages me today: the meditation in Prions en église confirms this to me.

MEDITATION: Psalm 104; Prions en église today.
English translation...
The psalm today teaches me a great lesson on the life of faith: the joy of singing and glorifying the Lord comes in seeking him, and not only after having found him! Even if the way is strewn with doubts and questionings, the journey in the search of God is an eminently joyful and stimulating one.

Thank you Lord. I come to you this morning, hard on myself, and discouraged, and you lift me up.
Amen.

September 21, 2024
Journal entry
Matthew 9:9

I speak to you because I know you will listen. You do not fear that which is divine, but embrace it with a love that is true. Always trust in me, my child, for I will never steer you wrong. Now is the time for your writing to start. It is easy, for it is already done. Now is the time to bring it together, for this in not only for your eyes, ears, and heart, but for the eyes, ears, and hearts of those around you. Trust in me, my child. I will make your righteousness shine like the noonday sun. For if I do this, it is my own righteousness that will shine through you, for these are my words and not yours. These are my thoughts, not yours, this is my work, not yours. Trust in me my child. Trust in me. All is in place and ready for you. No more distractions. It is done. Amen.

As Jesus was walking along, he saw a woman called Penny working in a bank; and Jesus said to her, "Follow me." and Penny got up and followed Jesus.

This is what happened to me in a concrete way, following the robbery in Cartierville Branch. Thank you, Lord. I left the bank and followed Jesus. My life completely changed.

September 26, 2024
Journal entry
prayer for a sign.